Inadequateness

I've been quite confused recently. In actuality, my life is revolved around promises. I've promised to improve my Chinese, I've promised to be a scientist, I've promised NOT TO HAVE A CRUSH UNTIL AFTER SECONDARY SCHOOL. But now it seems that I can't uphold the last one.
What's the damn use of holding on to this young love anyway. I'm the person no one notices, the person you go to last with an invitation to ANYTHING. She won't notice me.
And I won't notice her again. I PROMISE THAT. Please let me forget her. It's hard, but I guess it's possible. Please.
There are lots of reasons why I should forget her. Firstly is my grades. Sure, all my subjects are passing with rocketing colours, but look at my Chinese. God, 18/50.
Next is my inadequateness. Look at me(If you have met me.). Think about my personality. Would you like a person like me? Irritating, nerdy.
Another thing: Our personalities quite clash. Really. She won't be quite happy around me. Being around her will most probably UTTERLY upset her. Rather me be the unhappy one. Better for my concience.
Therefore I'll TRY not to give a damn about her anymore. Better for both sides.
Sorry for rambling on...of all days to feel down it had to be around my birhday...
Anyways, happy Labour Day.
Oh, yes, and for Des and YY, thanks for the extra work. I needed the distraction of work to avoid this small yet gaping hole in my heart. Forgive the sap.

_igni_g _ff
D_A

Post-Birthday Status

"We are!"
"Marshall!"
"We are!"
"Marshall!"
"WE ARE!'
"MARSHALL!"
About the above; I did a movie review about this movie for flim appreciation today: We Are Marshall, a 2005 flim based on a true story. Hm...
Currently listening to Imeem now. Ichirin no Hana r0x!!!!11!!! Lolz.
About school: Class 1A of Anglican High School is currently chionging (if I may use the singlish term) Mathematics Chapter 6. Nice work, Madam. 0.o
After a talk about *what-was-that-again*, a few of us went for the NSW Science test. I was a reserve. Damn wished that I could have taken part...I wanted to continue the legacy of a High Distinction each year...*zhi lian*
Anyway, some of you might notice a slight change in the Quote of the Day. Yes, that *lame* joke was quoted from Revolt of the Archers(fanfiction)...which had quoted from somewhere else...
Anyway, that disclaimer was from certain complaints that the name 'Quote of the Day' didn't fit as I did not change it EVERYDAY. Therefore, the disclaimer as born.
Anyway, (ZOMGZOMGZOMGLOLZLOLROFLMAOAHHHHH I caught the 'anyway' disease from MH...) I have nothing else to write. (YAY I cracked a lame joke.)

Signing off,
DNA

Birthday

OK, so today's my birthday. Thanks for the warm welcome, 1A08. Would you believe me if i said they were singing the birthday song in the canteen during recess? And two more times, once in Music class and another in English class. 1A IS loud. Thanks for attempting to find IP, Chng Kiat. Don't worry, I won't die w/o it, so nevermind about that. And Kenzie, don't carry me; you never know when you'll fracture your arm... Just a wish I made; everyone in 1A's birthday is celebrated as well, or better, than mine. please allow this to come true.
Anyway, about class. Music lesson. Song presentation. Nice one, Rach...No commas. Lol...
Maths lesson; Teacher absent....
Geog; Chng Kiat, rambling on about how many 'me's there are now...1 per ms. Me, rambling on about predestination paradox, since Chng Kiat already started the topic of time travel. ^^
PE; i just found a way to relieve stress, and to ('her' alert, ahh, now your're reading) forget 'her'. Hm...running laps around the indoor stadium ain't so bad...no one saw me?
Eng; Watching WAM. Hannah's hyperactive. No spoilers ^^ =P.
Sci; Witnessed the power of a future Olympics runner...Vivian made it from the Science lab, to the class, to the ice-cream seller outside school. In record time. Before that, we were studying acids/alkalines, but Kenzie was more interesting in smelling ammonium...having a headache now?
After school; Stayed back to do some cleaning of classroom. And erased the 'Happy Birthday ANDRew' note (yes, the caps just as it is) from the whiteboard. And to accompany Dave. He won't stay in class with just girls...expected, anyway. Ended with only I, Dave, Rach. Rach says she's acting emo, but it's the first time I heard a loud emo... And an emo who gets excited about my 'Shaker' phone...0.o. Wow.

Ending my long post, therefore relieving you of the torture of reading my long post,
Birthday Nerd Andrew

Pre-birthday

Woah, time flies. Two hours later is my birthday...more presents please! ^^ (Note: I'm joking.)
Anyway, been to Parkway Parade to celebrate my birthday with cousins and relatives. Nothing much to talk about, actually. Let's see what everyone has for me tomorrow...nothing much, I expect. I don't think I'm breaking the tradition of celebrating only the chairman's birthday...
Oh yes, as for the class outing; I wonder if the class tee will be ready by June...0.o

Yawning away,
DNA

P.S. The AEAS was a joke. Don't take it seriously and assasinate me...

Birthday

Firstly, I would like to kill Zhi Tao.
Today was Xin Yu's birthday. Not the robotics member, the primary school schoolmate. And few of us friends went with her to this shop in *god knows where*. And guess what, four of us, I WAS THE ONLY MALE. Which pretty much made me involved in lots of the dares in their lil' game of Truth-or-Dare. Thank you for being absent, Zhi Tao. I would like to have a lobotomy done on you as a sign of gratitude. (Just in case you don't know, lobotomy is where one's brain or nerves or whatever are cut. Evil?).
Anyways, feeling quite sian now...hm...
Listening to the songs in my own blog helps...in a way.

Signing off, (no brain juice left to think of anything else.)
DNA

AEAS

First things first, sorry that you have to scroll down to get to the tagboard now, it's just a measure to make sure you listen to the 14 songs.(^^)
Anyway, to the post title. AEAS stands for the Anti Emo Association of Singapore. I sorta founded it, although it won't last long...it has ended already, anyway.
Actually I don't have anything against emos. I admit I sometimes act emo, especially online. However, I prefer the happy-go-lucky, devil-may-care me. That's the real me. The emo posts help me to keep from going insane, it shows how I really feel about some things. Sometimes a little seriousness helps.
Who I'm really against are the people that act emo, for whatsoever reason. They don't have a trouble in the world, and they talk like the world's against them. Really, they have a large family with both parents and siblings who actually CARE for them. They really worry about you, 'emo' guy. And what are you doing? You cut your wrist or finger or whatever, and you say "I should die, I don't have anyone to care for me.". Let me tell you, PEOPLE CARE. I CARE. YOUR BELOVED 'GF' CARES. You ever heard of orphans? THEY don't have anyone to care for them. Do they cut their wrists like you do? NO, DAMN NO.
Sorry for the 'emo' post today. Using fire to fight fire? Lol. Rule no. 1, a joke a day keeps the Gothicness away. Even if it's a lame joke.

That's all,
DarnedNoobAndrew
Founder of always non-functional AEAS

Crush

Yeah, did the name of the post get you? Somehow seems that the only time I get tags is when I get guesses about who my crush is...blame the overwhelming population of females. Nah, I ain't so bad. Am I?
Anyway, I got the results of my Science test back. 35/40. Damn Chng Kiat, he beat me by 0.5 marks to third place. Top is Jing Yi, 37/40. Man, she is good...
As for my Mathematics test, I got 22/25. Not top again...then again not everyone can be top. If that was the case, there won't be a top because everyone will be the same...
Back to the name of post. I would like to thank Selina, if you did so, which is true according to him, for informing Chng Kiat of the clues I had given you to guess who the (un)lucky girl is. The lil' idiot is bugging me with guesses now.

Ending today's short post,
DNAndrew

Memories

OK, some good news (for me) first.
Firstly, is Imeem. THANK YOU FOR GOING BACK ONLINE!!! Listening to music now...
Second, my class is finally saved...thank you for stopping all these class troubles, whoever you are. I'll be grateful, and I expect the whole class will be. You did what I always wanted to do, but never had the courage to do. Once again, thank you.
Talking about the class makes me think back to the FSPS times. Good times, those. Getting pinched by Lynn(owie), talking to Mahesan(still do), Janice(yup, still do, same sec. school), Pu Sheng(still can do the Rubik's Cube?), Zhen Da(damn gay), Shawn, Feng Yi, Bataa, Elwin, Chloe, in fact everyone.
However, what with the 'cold war' over, I'm beggining to see the class I had actually matured with, however short the time. 1A '08 isn't so bad, it's just something I never saw. Truth to tell, I almost don't miss 2007 now. I had been too busy playing MMORPGs, never had time to make true friends. The need to stay back in school with my other classmates, thus not allowing me to Maple or RS or anything online, bonded me with my current clasmates. I had matured in my short time in AHS, I saw more to life than the computer.
Durin this short span of time, I had made friends who had helped me on this road to quit my computer addiction, whether directly or not. RongWei, Desmond, both Eugenes, Chng Kiat, Hannah, Denise, Selina, Jia Ying, Jia Yi, Jing Yi, Joo Hwee, Rachael, Dave, Guang Jun, Aaron, Joven, Gerald, everyone, too much to count. I had found a new life, not just one where I take tests half of the time and use the commie the other half.
For the first time in my life, I knew how to appreciate true friendship.

Thank you for reading,
Andrew Goh

Tiring...

OK, so I was absent yesterday. And when I came today, there was a science test waiting for me. Taking the test makes me wonder why my friends all claim they would fail. If I can pass, they would be getting full marks.
Another thing was Robotics. Today was Games Day for Robotics, so for once we donned PE attire and played a few sports and games; most notably Captainsball. My teammates can throw the ball, as a defender, to the correct goalkeeper. God, I wish I was able to throw as far as them.
Oh ya, and Jane somehow didn't seem as talkative today. Wonder why...=X.

Signing o...(sees crowd picking up assault rifles, shotguns, even rocket launchers)
OK, fine, LOGGING off (crowd puts down weapons and walks away, quickly. Soon there isn't a single person.)
DN...(crowd picks up sniper rifles and aim.)
OKOK, Andrew Goh. (crowd shoots anyway. All bullets hit each other and explode without touching blogger)

Absentee

OK, so i missed school today. Of all days.
It started yesterday when 1/2 of my tooth fell. Yes 1/2. Cracked down the middle. And when I visited the dentist today, apparently a tooth below, the adult tooth, had pushed at my milk tooth and broke it. Therefore the other half, still going on strong, had to be extracted. With quite some blood. Don't understand why its roots and nerves are still attached. oh well. Of all days to visit the dentist. A science test. And science administrative matters. Hm.
Anyways any H.W? I don't wanna spend my weekend rushing H.W... Then again I might.

Signing off...? Wait I'll still be online...
DNA

Deep Thoughts

Been wondering about life recently. About all this competition in life. Endless competition. I had always been taught to strive to be the first. Fengshan is a competitive school. Nothing matters as much as winning. I learnt that from the start.
But have I been learning the right thing?
Sure, winning is important. Acheiving is important. But is it all there is in life?
I've always thought that you controlled your life, and you had to control it a certain way; be the first, do all it takes, and more.
But now, that's different.
Ever heard of fate? I believe our lives are led by God, to a certain extent, but He still loves us, so we will all be important. Without one of us, the world will be changed.
For example, I may be a road cleaner one day. So I will help the environment, and my life will not be wasted. I may be a beggar one day. So I will help arouse sympathy among people, leading to more being done for the needy.
The road has been chosen by God, but it has splits, and crossroads. Those are the choices we make.
Which means don't stress yourselves out being the top. For all you know, God has a different plan for you. Just work hard. Not too hard.
This is my view of life. This is how I remain sane in a time of insanity. This is how I remain cool in an age of haste. This is how I remain laid-back, just enough, in an era of stress.
This is how I live.

Disclaimer

OK, this message is to Selina.
Sorry, but I lied. XD. I don't have a crush on Janice, sorry I have to use your name this way, but i was forced to. Sorry...still fwen? ^^.
Anyway, now you must be wondering why I admitted this when Selina can visit this blog anytime. I lied when I wanted to stop this game, but found it quite fun, so, ya, go on with your guesses. ^^.
And the other clues are real, though.
Happy guessing, (for once, a different one.)
DNA

Sian Post

Posting about today. And the night before.
Not much to talk about actually, just a few incidents...
First I stayed up past midnight to read this fanfiction online; Revolt of the Archers by Kal (whatever-his-name-is). Not bad.
Then I woke up at 9a.m. today to rush through my homework. Just finished. I could have finished earlier if Selina didn't SMS me with guesses on who my 'crush' is...for 1p.m. to 4p.m. Pro la, she. Don't worry, you'll know tomorow. Oh ya and during the time Selina SMSed me I was a Taka meeting my cousin, doing charity work for TMS. My cousin, not me.
Nice and sian?

Signing off, (everyday, the same damned line)
DNA

Hm...

OK, let's start with school matters.
Firstly, at Robotics. Jane and Elaine didn't come, their classes had PW. Joe said that a potential member might join Robotics after he was medically excused from NCC, and, guess what, it's my tution classmate last year! We lost contact shortly before PSLE.

Talking about friends, maybe something I have been thinking about.
It only happened recently. I used to think that the greatest emotion I could feel was the thrill of outwitting an opponent in chess, DotA, Warcraft, DAL, the like. Perhaps the satisfaction of successfully completing an experiment. I was wrong.
Now, talking to her can beat lots of other things. I didn't put friends in high regard until alebit after PSLE, before I changed for the better socially, but she was different. It started with me being a gentleman and helping her, and now I delight in that. Now, just making her laugh, or vice-versa, can make my day. I unconsiously find excuses to be around her. I dunno if this can be called young love, but I promised not to have a crush until after schooling was over. I'm hoping I can forget her, but it's not helping. Forgive me for spouting rubbish. Another symtom of this...

Signing off, (same old line)
DNA

P.S. AHSians, Fengshanians, guess all you want, it's not who you think it is. Yeah.

Randomness

I'm starting to hate Imeem now...stupid website won't load...
Anyways, in school, AHS had a (fairly interesting) talk about speaking good English for the sake of the coming Youth Olympics...The speaker was funny enough for most of my class to pay attention, which is quite something.
After school I stayed back for no particular reason to help clean up the classroom...and got teasings from Denise for my troubles. Frickin' gurl can't stop calling me 'seemingly harmless' and say that I 'stick around with girls all the time', in front of her fellow CCA mate. After that Elwin came in, and it got worse. Damn. If you wanna know the full details; ask Elwin. (Specially for AHSians and Fengshanians.)
Looks like school is all that I talk about in my blog; home is quite boring...all I can talk about during weekends is Warcraft. Or other blogs. Or Halo.

Signing off,
DNA(abbv.)

PW

Ok, so school was quite normal (boring), so I won't dwell on it. After school, I, Rong Wei, Lie Ren and Chng Kiat went to Chng Kiat's house for the most recent PW...and to admire his entire SHELF of TCG cards...it was very interesting and all but now I don't have time to do my homework...
Rushing homework, therefore signing off,
DarnedNoobAndrew(as always will be(sorta))

Dual Post

OK, so the handover ceremony for the Robotics Seniors went fine, except for the absence of my fellow Robotics Club member, Yi Yang. Lil' freak was missing for a few weeks already. We took a group photo, and man do I look dumb. At least I looked (almost) taller than the rest.

After the ceremony we went home early, and, to my UTTER surprise, Jane of Robotics took the same road home as me. Never knew anyone from Anglican lived around there other than me, Janice, Shawn's relatives, a few others. She proved talkative. (OMFG *=X* jkjk *XD*)

Another thing is that I just found out the meaning of my Chinese name, Kai En(in Pin Yin). The word 'Kai' means 'Joyful" in Chinese, and the word 'En' means 'Grace', very Christian.(-.- and no I'm not against it)

Truth be told, I was quite happy with this very Christian name...two values in a name. Uh-huh...And guess what, this name was given from my grandfather, who WASN'T a Christian. Weird name...? Especially when my mum said I lived up to my name, I was wondering what I had done to be joyful and gracious...

Another One...

OK, about the thief. Happy April Fools. I'm lucky enough NOT to run into one. You won't expect a person of my build to actually CATCH UP with one, yeah?
Nothing else much to talk about; just hoping I get an A1 for the next Geography test. Tommorow.

Slightly non-emo...

On the (supposed) road to recovery. As I said, ON THE ROAD, not ALREADY, so I'll take quite awhile for me to go back to the 'Don't give a damn' style of life. Probably never, with O levels in 4 years.
I had a good time surprising Elwin yesterday. During music lesson, when i was supposed to bring a piece of music, I brought 'Only Love', something Elwin sang in a singing comp. before, as a belated birthday present for him. We asked him to sing along (XD) but he didn't. How sad. I brought lyrics along just for that.
Of course, I had to plan the whole thing of hiding the song, which meant changing the file(yes i used a computer) to **** **** by Trademark, and the Microsoft Word file name to, well, Lyrics. Simple as that. But then I changed the font colour to white, hiding the words (XD). I changed it to black just as I said, "Happy belated birthday, Elwin.".
Loyal friend, eh?
But this had the effect of making him the next person to have to bring a piece of music.
well, a rose has thorns (XD).
Oh ya I just caught a thief on my way home from school. He's probably with the police now. Glad I did something good.

Signing off,
DarnedNoobAndrew

PS. Happy with the non-emo post? (XD)